I Did It!

I did it today.  I stuck up for us and let everyone know how it's going to be!   I've decided that next Christmas me and the kid are taking a vacation by ourselves and I refuse to subject us to any family drama.

Let's just say, I'm now officially on everybody's shit list, but I don't care because for once I am doing what is right for us.  I am not going to raise my child in the environment I was raised in.  Arguments every holiday, misery, crying, feeling worthless, being told you're worthless, drama...nope, no way, never.

So I started looking at places to spend next Christmas.  Yes, I know, I'm totally anal looking a good year in advance, but I'm one of those people who have to plan and KNOW where I am going.  Well, I found awesome deals on places to stay, just no awesome airfare because you can't book that far in advance.  Needless to say, I am also one of those paranoid people who will not book a place w/out knowing how I am going to get there.

Right now, it's between Hawaii (yes, this is KILLING ME because I REALLY want to go, but the airfare that I could see as far as you could see was wayyyyy too much), Gulf Shores or Ft. Lauderdale.  Gulf Shores we drive, Ft. Lauderdale we fly.  Hawaii I continue to dream....

So anyway, I told my mother today that we are going away for Xmas and she got pissed.  Her response was that she was having me down with the kid (uh, without asking...just assuming) and also having my younger sister down and her sister down.  First, my sister hasn't spoken to me in 6 years, despite numerous attempts at emailing, Birthday and Christmas cards.  She doesn't even know the kid, has never attempted to make contact with her, send a card, nothing.  The last time I saw her she called me a "fucking bitch" at Thanksgiving dinner and I packed up and drove 7 hours home w/out eating dinner.  Second, her sister has met me once in her life and the extent of the conversation was "Hi, I'm Barb."  Nope, No way, No Thank you.  I refuse to take part in any family drama.  I am no longer going to spend any holiday in the misery of my family.

There will no longer be any Jerry Springer meets Dr. Phil holidays for me and the kid.

We are free, I hereby declare.  And it feels good to breathe.