Wishing for a miracle, probably needing some prayers, a bunch of finger crossing and some good old fashion luck. Tonight I have the pleasure of returning to the doctor for the 6 month cancer check. In my head, I'm confident of my surgeon and the shots that I have received...but it's still nerve wracking to have to go, wait for the results, deal with it all over again, etc., but I suppose I can't go on with life with my hands over my ears singing "lalalala, I can't hear you." The voice in my head keeps saying, "Suck it up girl, it's gonna be ok...she got it all." The nerves are a different story, I'm a worrier until I have concrete proof that something is true to be.
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Anyway, the weekend was good. Yesterday was a perfect 10. Started the morning with church. I enjoyed it, but after having not gone for quite a few weeks I was surprised at the changes. Just little things, like the same guys weren't singing or playing the guitars. I like consistency in certain things...church being one of them, as it's taken me a heck of a long time to go back to a church and a long time to find a church I enjoy. I really like this one. The message on Sunday was good (I know T-imagine that coming out of my mouth w/the past issues I've had?!?) and I even signed my communication card that I'd like to serve. We'll see what that means, I'm kind of hoping to do some wallflowery type stuff since I'm really not good at approaching people out of the blue to talk. We'll see, it would be nice to be involved and not just duck out after service, but again, I'm not the type to take the first step toward approaching someone..but maybe doing something will help with that - eventually.
After church we stopped at a few stores and then came home and rode our bikes and went to three different playgrounds. It's so awesome that we have all of this within walking/riding distance! I surprised the kid by asking if she'd like to stop for an ice cream. Well, the surprise was on me! Turns out the ice cream was free that day at the place we stopped at. A sweet little bonus! The kid's little brain instantly lit up then, "Mom! We could come here everyday for dessert since the ice cream is free!" Ha, I don't think so! We sat outside and she ate her ice cream, the day was a bit chilly, but it was beautiful with the blue sky and sunshine!
We planted an herb garden under the bay window. So now I have hopes of at least one of the two growing. I have a little kit in the kitchen that has started to sprout...we'll see about the one outside. I had to bang on the window this morning after I caught all the little birds down there. Darn things! I hope it grows because the kid helped me plant it and took a lot of pride in doing so. We had a great time planting and watering and wearing our matching sunhats (I know, I'm totally cheesy...but brainwash them that you're cool when they're young, right? I have to admit, it totally makes me feel good that she wants to be like me...I'm not such a dork just yet.)
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Today I am grateful that my friend is coming to watch the kid so I can go to the doctor alone, that the weekend was pretty much perfect, and that I've found enough peace to return to the office today after a challenging last week.
Life is Valuable and Precious
14 years ago
2 comments:
Hey Girl! I am sure you will do great at your apointment-will be thinking about you!! I know what you mean about having a hard time taking the first step in service. Actually our pastor approached us after a service to ask if we could serve in AV-since we are computer junkies he figured we could do it. Well we do it. But if you read my last post we actually are going to eventually change churches-mostly regarding to alot of little things. Not really feeling connected and sermon feeling somewhat of baby food-sermons for new christions and not really challenging my faith as much as I'd hoped. And repititions. Wich I find very boring. But enough about me-hope your appointment goes well! Oh btw when I posted about making pupusa's I thought Id make you proud with trying some ethnic food!!
You're so funny. When I read about your papusa's I thought instantly that you should try making an empanada de pino. It's flour based with meat, DELICIOUS!!!! That's my suggestion for your next cooking adventure. Yay on the ethnic food, especially the Latin food - you can't go wrong!!!
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