Fair Weather Friends

Blog-n-bitch.  First off, I am a sucker with no back bone.  I totally let myself be used because I'm too chicken to say no.  I HATE arguing, HATE it!  Anyway, the point I'm trying to make is that I think I know one of the biggest hypocrites alive right now...and she is a pastor's wife.  Ha!  Talk about being a "good Christian."  Whatever.  Okay, so I'm irritated beyond belief and I'm sitting here with chocolate and a BIG ass glass of wine and I am going to bitch...so sue me. 

I just received an email from this woman saying she'd love to stop by and see the house and let me know when she can.  Um, EXCUSE ME?  Where were you the past 6 months when I needed a ride to surgery?  When I needed some help with the kid after surgery?  When I could have used a ride to grocery store or at least some help carrying grocery bags upstairs?  When I could have appreciated so much as a phone call to know I wasn't alone or an email to see if I'm okay?  To offer any kind of help?  Even if it would be a 1/2 hour of company while I was stuck on the couch? And you want me to invite you over when I haven't been invited to any one of your parties since I stopped attending your church?   When you haven't cared for the past 6 months?  I already know you are a gossip, and I'm not up for that.

Am I pissed?  Am I bitter?  Hell yes.  I don't care.  Who are you to butt in to my life now to satisfy your own curiosity and nosiness when I've been nothing to you for 6 months?  True friends don't behave that way.

Does that make me a "bad Christian?"  Maybe, but I'm not apologizing for reality.  You are either a friend or you are not.  You are not going to step in to my life when it is convenient for you and when you need to satisfy your own curiosity.  I'm not up for it anymore.  I've had enough game playing already, and I'm done.  Go pretend to be a good person on Sundays while you gossip all during the week, go pretend to be a good person on Sundays when you really don't fulfill the need of the needy.  Whatever, just leave me alone!  Stay out of my life, don't pretend any more.  I don't have the patience.  If there is one thing I've learned from having cancer, I've learned who really cares, who really truly my friends are and who I can count on to help and who I can count on to talk to....and for those select few, I am truly grateful and I will never know how to repay them, but I love them to death!!!

Enough of that...the furniture repair man from the move came today.  He fixed the damage to the wood furniture and also to the couch.  I'm happy with the wood repairs, not so pleased with the couch, but I don't think I have much of an option in regard to the couch.  I have to say though, that if you didn't know the couch was damaged, you probably would not even notice the repair, but I do...I'm anal like that.

Tonight the kid was at her father's for dinner, so I had the opportunity to meet up with a friend of mine for dinner.  We went out to a fantastic Thai restaurant.  I love Thai food, it simply has to be my favorite!  It was delicious, as always.  We had a great time catching up, talking...it was nice to be with a girl friend as an adult and relax.  This friend and I never get together enough.  She lives in the city and I live in the suburbs.  She's single and I have a kid.  It's tough to get together when we have two completely different lifestyles but when we get the opportunity we have a great time.  I am grateful that we had our time tonight to have a relaxing, delicious meal and to chit chat about everything and anything. 

Today we received lots of mail.  I got a card from my Grandma and Aunt for Easter.  That was nice.  I called my Grandma to thank her for the card/check and new coat.  She is a loopy 90 years old, but she still cracks me up.  Then I had to call my dad to tease him about what Grandma says about him.  He always gets so embarrased, but I know he loves it anyway.  I also received a postcard from Texas today.  It was cool because it had a Texas Chili recipe on it, and the kid's favorite thing I make is Chili, so I will have to try this recipe.  The kid also got a card from my aunt and then two postcards: one from Thailand and one from the Netherlands.  She was ecstatic to get so much mail.  I love seeing her excitement when she gets mail!  It is really a wonderful moment!  The one from Thailand had only one sentence on it.  The kid wanted to know why she didn't write so much and I had to explain to her that maybe she didn't know too much English.  That seemed to satisfy her.  She really liked the front of the postcard, it was of a temple in Thailand. 
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Today I am grateful for my daughter, that I'm working from home and the house is so quiet, and that it didn't snow.