My Life Is Over...

Well, why not begin with My Life is Over as a title, after all I reign as the drama queen!!!  Tomorrow I head back to work after 6 glorious weeks of working from home.  I LOVE working from home.  We get to sleep in an hour later, I can work in my pajamas if I want to, I can cook for lunch (if I want to), I get an extra hour at night or so to spend with the kid and it's so, so, so peaceful (except for the damn birds in the nest right outside the window).  I don't have to go into the drama and cattiness of working with 5 crazy women.  Alright, so they are alright most of the time, but you know, anti-social me hasn't had to be social for 6 weeks.  Peace!  Right?

Anyway, I'm having a very, very, very hard time with this.  I've gotten so used to being at home with the kid, spending more time with her, enjoying the afternoons and not having to rush so much before school/camp or after work.  It hasn't been, get home, hurry up, cook, clean up, homework and bed.  It's been more like cook, take a bike ride, play a game, snuggle a bit and watch TV and then bed.  I've been a much, much better parent.  Less crabby - especially in the morning and now I'm afraid it's all going to end.  I'm terribly greedy about wanting to spend time with the kid.  She's growing way too fast.  Another year and she'll be embarrassed to have me around!  And yes, since I am the drama queen, almighty reigning, I might as well admit that I feel almost as bad as when I took the kid to the day care for the first time after my maternity leave.

The kid's gotten used to the fun times we've been having together too.  Her comment about me going into the office tomorrow was, "Mom, I don't really mean this, but I wish you'd break your other foot just so you could still be at home."  How can that not break your heart???  I need to win the lottery - damn it.  I need to start playing it first - double damn it.

Anyway, I didn't sleep at all last night knowing that today is my last day home.  I guess it's true, all good things come to an end.  I'm so depressed...if I were three I'd be lying on the floor sobbing and stomping my feet right now.