2:00am Ramblings

1. I love the way the British say, "Oh My God!" And why does the "f" word sound so graceful and appropriate when used in a sentence that comes out of their mouth?  I must be a sucker for accents.  Check that, I am, I definitely am.
2. Why does EVERY movie I see that's filmed in New York City seem so romantic to me?..even if it's not a romantic film. NYC = romance, at least to me. I wonder, if I lived there, would I meet the love of my life? Would I be proposed to in Central Park on one of the boats? Will I be too old by the time the kid graduates or could I possibly have my chance? I guess I may never know and I guess for now I'll continue being a dreamer.
3. I often wonder how my daughter sees me...does she think I'm beautiful?   Does she see my many faults?
4. Nine years later, I still cry when I see pictures of the World Trade Center.
5. The smell of cigarettes and bus exhaust is one of my fondest memories.  It's my sensory memory of Chile.  I know those two smells are disgusting, but together they remind me of some of the absolute best times of my life.  I was so alive then!
6. I should have learned by now not to rent movies with above a "B" rating.  I'm not sure if that's telling me something about my mentatliy, maturity, or artsy-fartsy side of me.  If it's telling me I'm not artsy-fartsy, I'm ok with that.
7. If there is a God, why is there so much chaos, hatred, war, devastation in the world?  What kind of God would do that?  I wouldn't be bored if there were peace.  Come on already and give it a try!
8. Why do people feel the need to euthanize an animal that should be in the wild when it harms a human?  Would you want to be wild and then kept in a tiny cage?  Expected to perform on command?  (Hell, I have arguments with my alarm clock every morning!)  Do they not realize that deer are the leading cause of death by animal in the USA?  You don't see vigilantes going around euthanizing every deer out there. 
9. What if I die alone because I won't let anyone in now? 
10. I know that one person is reading my blog, but I want to be a web-sensation.  Does that make me a realist or a dreamer or a bit of both?  ...Most likely a dreamer.
11. Does anyone ever really move on?
12. I always swore I was NEVER going to be a Republican or a Corporate sell-out.  I now believe that I am both...when and how and why did that happen?  And what am I going to do about it?  Probably nothing.  I can pay the bills and I bitch about welfare.
13. How do you form your own opinion when you have a father that is ultimate Christian, a mother that is religious when it suits her and a BFF that's anti-Christ?  I don't want to please anyone, I want to be me, believe in what I believe and live.  I have my doubts, serious doubts...but I'm ready to be convinced all the same.  Note:  Convincing does not equal being preached to.
14. What if we had selective amnesia?  Wouldn't it be a wonderful world?
15. Does being a mother give you a green card to openly criticize your daughter?  I know I'm fat already!
16. I want soooo badly to live in NYC.  But I can't stand living in an apartment here.  How would I fare living in a flat there?  Would the city get the best of me that I could just deal with it?  Will I ever find out?
17. Is every PTA always composed of former HS Cheerleaders who aren't ready to leave their youth and popularity behind?  Like, OMG, gag me with a spoon!
18. Why are things that are so bad for you so damn good?  Who invented them anyway?  My 3 guilty pleasures are wine, salt & (salty) cheese.  Maybe I was meant to be French, oui?
19. Does everyone get stuck in their generation of greatness?
20. I hate the city, this city in which I live, but there are three I would give an arm and a leg in to live:  NYC, Paris and Santiago...I'm in love!!! <3
21. I just heard a movie line, boy:  "If you could go anywhere in the world, would you go?"  girl:  "Well, I don't have anything with me."  boy:  "I will buy you a toothbrush in Rome."  Umm.....what about fresh underwear????
22. I'm giving up space for privacy.  I hope I'm not clausterphobic.
23. Give me the name of one person that is truly happy.  Then prove it.
24. Can you make a living being a dog walker in NYC?  How could that not be the ultimate job? (aside from picking up the poop).
25. We don't have earthquakes, hurricanes or landslides where I live.  The most we have are tornado warnings that are issued when lightening strikes.  What's our greatest ailment?  Snow.  Which is the lesser of all evils????  I guess I should consider it that we are fortunate...yet boring and cold.
26. Are all your 'friends' on Facebook really your "friends?"  Most of mine are aquaintances that I like to touch base with.  The people who request my friendship that I don't care about can stick it...I'm sorry, you want to be friends with me why????
27. I love hockey.  I'm just not quite sure how I discovered the relatively new love of my life.
28. I've known someone for some time...and then I tried attending their church.  Was invited to their parties until I decided their church was not for me.  I believe friendship and church should be two separate entitites...this leads me to believe we were never friends.
29. I have a bucket list that I'm afraid I won't accomplish before I die. Most of it includes travel.
30. Does everyone indulge in a bit of nostalgia?  Do they ever let go?  Or is that what keeps them going?
31. As stupidly wrong as I think reality tv is, I love watching the Bachelor.  And even more so, I love yelling at the tv and telling him how wrong his choices are!
32. (Proceeding #30)  Who am I to criticize?  Like I've made the best choices????!!!!!???
33. Why does the mayor advertise Chicago as being breathtaking?  The only thing I see "breathtaking" about that city is the 10% sales tax.
34. War is stupid.
35. My parents named me XXXX, if I were to be a boy I would have been named Zack.  All that comes to mind is the Lego theme song from the 90's, "Zack, Zack, he's a lego maniac."  I named my daughter XXXX, if she were to have been a boy I would have named her Christopher.  Would there have been something wrong with that? 
36. Why are some people granted the divine miracle of parenthood while others are not?
37. Are professional athletes really as stupid as they sound? 
38. Tall, dark and handsome?  Says who?  Why don't you ever read "Short, fat and bald" in a romance novel or see it in a movie?
39. They say, "living with Lupus,"  but "slowly dying with lupus" sounds more appropriate/accurate to me.  Some days are a real bitch.
40. Hello, my name is Anonymously Me and I'm a toilet paper addict.  Don't let me go to the store when toilet paper is on sale AND I have a coupon....no matter if I already have 80 rolls at home in my closet.  I'm telling you, if there is ever a toilet paper crisis the nation will be lined up at my door because I'll never run out.
41. I hate the part of parenting that includes the word "discipline."  Why can't children just be born perfect?  And why can't we be perfect parents?
42. I believe in gun control.  I believe it would save a lot of people from a lot of nutjobs.
43. John Corbett is my movie star fantasy.  I don't know why, but he just does it for me. 
44. What does my neighor possibly do every night from 12:30-1:30am and how did he manage to find the ONLY squeaky part in the floor during that time?
45. I wish I could sit down with my pastor and ask him all of my questions...but they would probably piss him off.
46. I decided to coach kids basketball after I found out that I had cancer in the fall.  My rationale was that if I could keep up with the kids, the cancer wouldn't beat me.  Who was I kidding?  Seven 1st-3rd graders are beating me, they are exhausting!!!
47. I am a dork.  Always have been and probably always will be.  But right now my daughter thinks I am the coolest mom ever and that's all that matters.  Who else sings Hannah Montana on the top of their lungs on the way to school at 7 in the morning?
48. I refuse to pay for cable.
49. I love Black Friday shopping at Walmart.  Does that make me a redneck?  I don't go in my pajamas.
50. I remember when the Challenger blew up.  I remember the Gulf War and the fear I had as a child thinking about our nation going to war.  I remember where and what I was doing on September 11th.  What things will my daughter's generation remember?