OMG. I Can't Win.

So it's been a while since I've blogged.  I know, I get it.  Believe me, there have been many a times that I've wanted to blog in the past few weeks, but work has really picked up and quite frankly, after fixing systems all day the last thing I want to do is be on the computer at home.  Blah!

Anyway, to blog this or not?  I don't know what to do but considering I woke up this morning after having a dream that I was dying, what the hell?  I got the MRI done on my other hip a couple of weeks ago.  The results came back that I'm having surgery again.  Thrilling, I know.  But what was disturbing was that the report wrote that there "May be a possible cyst on the ovary."  Way to go doc, leaving my ovaries in there.  (Ok, I get why she did that, but come on!!!!).  An ultrasound was recommended.  Well that didn't come back with "positive" results...something has high possiblity of being there.  I have to go get an MRI immediately...and guess what pelvic MRI's are used for?  To detect and stage cancer.  It hasn't even been a freaking year yet.  I wish I could say I'm in denial, but I'm freaking out.

I keep trying to tell myself it could be nothing, but my obsession with worry is getting the best of me - hence the nightmare I had last night.  What the hell am I going to do if it's back????