So I Totally Lied

So I totally lied, I just did a 5 mile 1 1/2 hour walk.  I'm still staying away from the elliptical, that thing is scaring me today!!!!

Party, Party!

So I pulled it off and I had a good turn out.  18 people.  I feel like an adult now that I've officially hosted my first party.  LOL.  You'd have thought having a kid, buying a house, being married would make me feel grown.  Nope, I have to be the odd one out and wait to host a party.  I remember though as a kid the parties my mother would host and how grown up and glamourous it all was when she'd make fancy desserts and get dressed up.  Okay, so my party wasn't full of fancy desserts, but I did do my hair and make-up.  I mean even the hot rollers came out...and that's sayin' somethin'.

It was fun though and all the kids had a blast.  I made sherbert punch for the kids and the kid woke up this morning and told me she wanted a party just like "last night" for her birthday party.  The punch, brownies and eclairs were a hit with the kids.  : )  The rest of the items were a big hit too, no leftovers!  My menu was meatballs, antipasti salad and also a tomato, basil & mozz. ball salad, cheese tray, meat tray w/artichoke salad, olives and pepperonicci, bruschetta, bread w/olive oil and parmesan cheese.  Then I made a giant fruit salad with a cool whip dip, brownies, eclairs and a vanilla almond tart.  I decided to go Italian because it was the easiest to do with the most options for cold food.  I didn't want to be cooking and standing by the oven during the party.

Besides that, I am not getting on the scale today or anytime within the next 5 days.  With the wine I drank last night and the food I've eaten, I'm not even about to torture myself and beat myself up because it will all go to pot then.  I just have to get back on track and get on that elliptical tomorrow.  This weekend I haven't done it at all and have no plans on doing it today considering I still haven't gone to bed from last night!  I'm thinking 8 o'clock bedtime tonight might be looking really good!

Finally, because I'm totally cheesy, I had to take pictures of the spread.  And then forgot to take pictures of the acutal party.  Silly me.

All in all, I had a great time talking all night and a great time cooking w/the kid the night before.  I just might be tempted to have another party sometime in the near future.

Wow!

Not to toot my own horn or anything, but I'm really proud of how well I've been doing this week.  I've stuck to it longer than one day!  Monday, Tuesday I did the elliptical, Wednesday I did the 3 mile walk, yesterday I mowed the lawn (and that in itself for me is probably a better workout than the elliptical!) and today during lunch I did the elliptical again.  That's 5 days of exercise...5 days more than I was doing before!  I've been eating smaller portions, with the exception of a minor binge last night (the three remaining cookies from my boss and ONE glass of wine). 

Just got on the scale after my workout before the shower and I'm down 5.2 lbs!

Cancun It Is!

The air conditioner broke AGAIN!  They are coming to fix it AGAIN tomorrow.  They were just out here on May 27th...nice.  Wonder if their work is warrantied???

Anyway, I was not crazy enough to do the elliptical when it was 90 degrees (no joke) inside my house when I got home tonight.  I dropped the kid off at 7 and came home and decided to take a walk.  Hey?  I'm doing good...exercise and good eating for the past 3 days.  A record for me.  Anyway, I did 3 miles in 45 minutes.  I felt really good, except for my cracked toe...but Mexico, Mexico, Mexico was enough to keep going.

Got on the scale this morning and am down 3.6 lbs, which is probably just water weight but WHO CARES!!!! The number went down!  Gotta keep going!!!!

It's All About Perspective

I was geting in to the shower tonight after working on the elliptical and the kid walks into pee (we only have one bathroom).  She exclaims, "Wow mom!  That machine really works.  Your butt got smaller tonight!!!"  It must have all been in the angle...

If only it were true!!!!!!!!!

Pickles and Stamps

The kid decided to be extra helpful during lunch this weekend and not only put the pickles on the table, but open them.  She ended up opening them all over the kitchen table, tablecloth, floor, chairs and chair pads.  I could not imagine having the permanent smell of dill pickles in my house (chair pads) so I had this genious idea to recover them.  Wayyyy tooooo much work!  But I did it.  Never again.  I can't believe people make a profession out of that...that's one job I can check off my list of never wanting. 


Got a postcard from Finland today with an awesome stamp on it.  I know, I'm amused by the stupidest things.  The kid went crazy about the stamp though too because it's this broccoli with silly eyes and a mouth.  Why can't we have cool international stamps like that?  We just have the boring mountains.  Blah.   

I thought I'd be getting on the elliptical in the mornings before work, but after attempting to get back up an hour earlier (after a night of NO sleep), I can see that is not going to happen.  Now or in the future.  Lately I've been getting a second wind though around 7.  Tonight I did a half an hour, 1 3/4 mile and burned 485 calories.  Hey whatever works.  Jamaica, Mexico, St. Thomas???  Whatever, wherever, I'll be there soon!!!  And I'm hoping no one reports a beached whale.

Alright already, could I have a more boring blog?  Well anyway, peace for tonight.  I'm walking into hell tomorrow.  *sob*

My Life Is Over...

Well, why not begin with My Life is Over as a title, after all I reign as the drama queen!!!  Tomorrow I head back to work after 6 glorious weeks of working from home.  I LOVE working from home.  We get to sleep in an hour later, I can work in my pajamas if I want to, I can cook for lunch (if I want to), I get an extra hour at night or so to spend with the kid and it's so, so, so peaceful (except for the damn birds in the nest right outside the window).  I don't have to go into the drama and cattiness of working with 5 crazy women.  Alright, so they are alright most of the time, but you know, anti-social me hasn't had to be social for 6 weeks.  Peace!  Right?

Anyway, I'm having a very, very, very hard time with this.  I've gotten so used to being at home with the kid, spending more time with her, enjoying the afternoons and not having to rush so much before school/camp or after work.  It hasn't been, get home, hurry up, cook, clean up, homework and bed.  It's been more like cook, take a bike ride, play a game, snuggle a bit and watch TV and then bed.  I've been a much, much better parent.  Less crabby - especially in the morning and now I'm afraid it's all going to end.  I'm terribly greedy about wanting to spend time with the kid.  She's growing way too fast.  Another year and she'll be embarrassed to have me around!  And yes, since I am the drama queen, almighty reigning, I might as well admit that I feel almost as bad as when I took the kid to the day care for the first time after my maternity leave.

The kid's gotten used to the fun times we've been having together too.  Her comment about me going into the office tomorrow was, "Mom, I don't really mean this, but I wish you'd break your other foot just so you could still be at home."  How can that not break your heart???  I need to win the lottery - damn it.  I need to start playing it first - double damn it.

Anyway, I didn't sleep at all last night knowing that today is my last day home.  I guess it's true, all good things come to an end.  I'm so depressed...if I were three I'd be lying on the floor sobbing and stomping my feet right now.

Another Shot At Church

So I gave it another shot today - I went to church and afterward they had a picnic.  Ho-hum....okay, well, I really don't know where to go from here.

Let's start with what I like.  I like that it's not too far from home.  I like the church itself.  I like the pastor, I think his sermons are interesting, well thought out, informative and funny.  I feel comfortable sitting in the church.  I like that it's a small church, not overwhelming like one of the mega churches.  I like that there is a choice of a 9am or a 10:30am service.  I like that the kid enjoys herself there and the kids are nice to her.  I like that she is interested in it and wants to go (none of that Catholic-forced church stuff happenin' here).  I like that she is happy about what she did in "class" when I pick her up after service.

Here's what I don't like.  People don't talk to me.  I'm very uncomfortable hanging out there by myself while everyone else knows someone to talk to.  For example, today, at the picnic, I sat with the kids.  Big surprise there.  The only person to come talk to me was the pastor to ask me how my foot was and how I broke it.  A whole 3 minute conversation and then I was on my own again.  No one came over to introduce themselves.  A lady sat down at the table, opposite me, with a friend, said their names and then went on talking amongst themselves.  I finally had enough of feeling stupid and got the kid and left. 

Okay, so I know it's not entirely "everyone else's" fault because I should probably make an effort to talk to someone.  But, um, well, just how do you interrupt a couple?  "Oh hi, I'm socially awkward, but can you be my friend?"  I'm not 8!!!  Oh, how about this one, "Hi, I'm here by myself, can I be your third wheel?" 

Anyway, I don't know what to do at this point.  I have serious issues introducing myself to people and striking up a conversation.  I'm painfully shy and I know I lack a lot of self-confidence.  And maybe, I guess, my expectation was too high of what to expect at church or with "church" people.  I thought they'd see a new person and come talk...hmph.

One more note.  I signed my card for the second time today saying I would be interested in "serving."  I can start by making a small effort.  But will it go unnoticed/ignored again???

I'm torn.  I like the church, but I don't like being the awkward one out.  I want to be a part of something and fit in somewhere. 

What to do?  What to do???  And P.S. why am I such a reject????

Not A Doubt In My Mind

I may have had cancer, may have lupus...but there are two things I'm sure never to get:

1.  Anorexia
2.  Bulemia.

I love to eat...

Chinese

Am I the only person in the world that gets Chinese take out but always has to eat the Crab Rangoon in the car?  I have no self control!!!